The Next 21 Days

I'm a Pisces and growing up I was always into astrology. One of the things that was often said about us is that we tend to view the world through rose-colored glasses. Essentially, what that means is that we don't always see things for what they are but through a lens that slightly tints reality. It's almost like we see what we want to see. Several years ago when I moved to the City I asked God to remove those rose-colored glasses from my eyes and boy has He ever! I bring this up because I've had an emotional few weeks that were chocked full of reality. I've been made aware of some things that have shocked me, upset me and disappointed me. For a few days, I was a literally out of it.

So, when I learned that the step ministry that I'm apart of at church (the team is known as Boots) would be embarking on a 21 day partial fast, I was all for it. Of course, to some degree I'm never really ready to partake in a fast, as it never seems convenient. But this time feels different. It's like I need it. Almost craving it. I know that whenever I fast, I feel God working through and around me in ways that I could never imagine or have experienced. And I need His infilling and presence with me now more than ever.

At any rate, I'm going to attempt to blog everyday during the fast just to share what God is revealing to me and what He's dealing with me about. Our reference scripture is Isaiah 58 and the focus of the fast is not merely to "turn down our plates" but to seek God's wisdom for ways that we can pour out and give of ourselves to others. I've also been dealing alot with matters of relationships and am seeking God's face as it pertains to getting to know Him as my first and only true love. I realize that what I really want and need only God can provide. To require a mortal man to satisfy all of my desires, emotional and spiritual longings is unrealistic. I will never be able to be all things to him either. One of my friends shared a bit of wisdom about her own personal relationship. She said that she had to learn that God is her source. Everyone else is just a resource.

The fast will begin on Wed, Jun 9th. I'm ready. Let it begin...